Lacked Of Money

Yesterday i sms-ing with Ryan( i think im also need english name, boleh camtu?). I’m lacked of money now and I think I’m going to be miskin also after I get my wages this week. Mana tidaknya, saya ada list yang panjang dan juga program yang sangat menarik tapi memerlukan cost yang tinggi. Sesak nafas mak ni.

Here goes my shopping list

1. Blusher
2. Eye Shadow
3. T-shirt (atleast 5 items okey, u know my sis nak balik)
4. Pyjamas (2 items)
5. Shirts (Office wear)
6. Shoes
7. Also tudungs okeh (my officemate and i ada trip to Jalan TAR next monday)
8. Jeans (need to go the curve)

My break fast schedule (weekend)

1. With my officemate (weekdays pun boley)
2. Ex-fmct
3. With nelly, mea, noddy

Treat Adeena's and my other nieces and nephews

1. Adeena: Pink diary with printed out scapping stuffs
2. Adriana: Anything okey :p
3. Haziq: Already treated him Sesame Street Shirt
4. Harith: Poney Shirt (dah beli ok)
5. Aishah: Going to buy her a dress

I wish

1. I could have more money $$
2. Cancel our plan to jakarta even my sis already bought the flight ticket
3. Cop duit, boleh?

So sweet Okey

I just can't wait to be reunited again, cepatlah balik sayang!

Selamat Menyambut Bulan Ramadan

Tomorrow all muslims would be start on fasting. Happy ramadan to all of you. Jangan lupa puasa, tarawikh, sahur, breakfasting, jangan anyam ketupap dan sewaktu dengannya. Oh, one more thing, bazaar ramadan.. wah, this one sooow lovely- bundle of foods..

i really miss bubur lambuk kampung baru, air bandung, nasi tomato and ayam percik taman ehsan.
*you know what its all about, isn't it?

Other than that, i miss to break fast in kipark, i still remember last year where me and ema slalu pergi after work, bazaar ramadan sri damansara. Dari situ i tahu what is lompat tikam dan ada satu kuih yang sangat sedap dan tak jumpa kat mana2 dah. Kuih dia dalam bekas, ada 2-3 ketul then ada gula merah. sedap sangat, tak tahu nak describe macamana kuih tu. And tak lupa juga Thai based yang sedap jugak. I still remember masa me, lea n julie makan butter chicken kat situ. yummilicious..

Last nite my sis sms me, sis and bro to pick all her stuffs from kinrara to her new house in diamond resident. Yew, when the time she come back from uk, i bley la pi menggedik kat her new house. best2 sangat. Really can't wait to reunited with my 2 lovely nieces plus my sister also pregnant right now. Im so excited.

Other than that, really rasa nak this bag. I've got the blue print wording which is Hong Kong version. Now, i really want the brown wording -uk version. I nak beli lar, pakai time pergi jakarta nanti. Terujanya.

Ini Adam Zikri- Anak Fida

waa, makan mentos! sama macam auntie

This boy are so cute just like his mum. Auntie tak pernah jumpa awak since you're born until you you left for Sabah. So, have a good time there Adam and jangan kacau mama awak buat bisnes ek. :p

I felt So Lembuww

I felt like so lembuww.. Just now ada orang project called dari sabak bernam. I really thought that pakcik2 call me and i just jerit kuat2.. ala nak kenakan i lar tuh.. I pun siap tanya breakfast and everything.. He told me that his not a pakcik like what i thought. He want to ask me about file yang i dah uploaded. U know what, i like cover2 and ask him what the file ID and terus put down the phone without asking his name.. '

After i checked the file i rang up the SB office again and guess what? I tak tau nak cakap dengan siapa and i just explain to the guys about the file. And he also like the hell- tanya i nak berkenalan ke. I felt like soo lembuw plus my face turned red. Mongok lar tuh. I talking about the file, not kawin okeh.. Sekarang saya sangat malu..

Last week i pergi SR hospital to see my cousin in gyne. I went up alone and the hospital really scary okey. Meremang satu badan. I wonder lar camne nurse2 kat situw, tak takut ke.. sure they are super duper brave.. for the penakuts macam gue ini baiklah jangan jadi nurse.

Yesterday, i had a trainning session with the access, switching guys. The project that we have to do later is soo susah.

I wrote down a note and last nite i type it back and pass it to the others.. my project members asked me to do the job with them in outside. But the thing is im very comfortable to sit here, where i am right now with superb officemates inside this TX room.

I really loves the kecoh2 time and goreng pisang session.

Harith Junior

Aku Rinnduww Semua Ni

1.09 am, 20 July, 8 days before you leaving..

Dear sayang..

First of all Im wanna say sorry if u ada rasa dispointed dengan I. I takda maksud nak buat u kecil hati or something that would hurt you. Apa pun, i minta maaf dari awal perkenalan kita sampai hari ni. Kalau i ada buat salah- memang ada pun rite? Maafkan I Syg.
I pun tak faham kenapa nowdays i rasa i patut stick dengan apa yang i tulis dalam my first letter. Nowdays, i rasa i dah jauh dari you, i rasa ada gap in between both of us.

Dear,I tak pernah kisah how much u spend for you aunt and her kids. I tak pernah persoalkan dan i takkan tanya. But bila u rasa i dengan the kids sama penting.. i rasa i akan hilang u. Before this, u pernah kata yang kalau u tak kawin dengan i, u takkan kawin sebab u dah ada the kids. Other thing is, u kata the kids jaga u very well..

Honestly i rasa terpinggir dari hidup u. Selama ni i tak jaga you ek.. I sedih sangat sayang. I rasa nafas i berenti sekejap bila u cakap macam tu. Kenapa u buat macam ni, apa salah i.
Bagi i, after Ayu is Azman, but i dont know for your side, maybe after Azman is other people then i. I pernah bagitau u, kalau kita ada anak pun, i akan put u first as you wish. I wish u to do the same thing to me... You are the reason for me to woke up in the morning. For me, u are everything.

Since, im doing my prac, we spent less time together. I busy on day time and u pun busy. Bila malam dah penat then we need to rest. Next 8 days, you're leaving to China. I dont know la sayang, whether i can face all that.
I miss the old Azman. I miss Azman who previously put me first, love me so much. I miss our time together. I miss to ask you about what u having for lunch and dinner.
Do you still eat the oat?
Do you till wear the northen rock T-Shirt?
Do you wash it?
Where do you put my teddy bear with tag MAN & AYU?

I deeply miss my old Azman, I need him to make me smile again,
He is mine, please give me back..

Letter For Azman,

Dear Azman,

Hi, how are you? I guess u still in bed. Its okay, cuti2 Malaysia rite?Whatever it is, i hope u will read this from beginning to the end. I wrote this letter in my diary. My online diary, since my previous relationship.

It's hard for me to start this letter ... after I talked to you last night I thought everything would be fine but when I woke up this morning I would realize that I wish it was only just a dream.
I once was afraid to fall for a man after all of the times that I had been loved and left before.

I thought this would be the same, so I didn't let myself fall. I was afraid to be left, used, whatever, but you showed me what love really is. You have been loved and left before, and I know that you were as scared as I was.

Man, I guess u tertanya2 what the hell of this for. Am I rite?Actually man, I like u so much. U is open minded, smart, brilliant, good looking and business minded. You’re the person that woman looking for.

And other thing, u cares about me. So much I think. U seems really understand about me, I guess, if you see my family and siblings, they will kindly accepting you.
Man, I know your previous relationship doesn't work. I mean the girl just want to take advantages from you. Syg, I think you're too kind. Since my bf left me, I found so many men’s, but I never interested on them. The only thing is, there are no chemistry between me and those guys.

Anyway Man, Im glad, we have the same feeling, same dream and chemistry. Unfortunately, im still no ready to accept anyone else in my life. The other thing is, I selalu rindukan you tapi dalam hati, I masih tak lupakan Jazz. And I scared if I accept you and one day dia datang balik pada i. Macam dalam cerita Cast Away tu. I takut I menyesal and Im scared if Im hurting you when you really love me.

Kita baru kenal and I think I didn’t hurt you so much if I terus terang sekarang. I won’t wait until a month or a year. Im really sorry for all this. And I’ll keep you in my heart and mind. Im still your friend and I’ll be with you in you happy and hard time. I harap you akan jumpa orang yang lebih baik dan sempurna daripada i. Take care my dear..peeps.

Through those precious moments, magical times and meaningful words ... thank you.

Caltex Annual Dinner

I started my day at 12 am on friday. Lea, Yani, yatie and myself went to uptown danau kota to get the girls white outfit. I got my white clothes already, i bought white skirt and blouse. The infront of the blouse got some flowers and labuci. Im also bought silver bracelet and black pearl necklace and white scarft. Enuff said, we get home at 4 am and end up with Zzzz..

Day started at 11 am, im still sleepy but i have to wake up to get everything ready for tonight. At 2.30, ema and shahir already waiting in the office. My self, lea and 2 girls went to the office. Si shahir still managed to check out his my space. oh my. Im go with ema and shahir. we went by shahir's car and the girls following us by another car.

After the sesat2, (shahir is very easy to lost, he dont know road in KL very well even he lives in KL for ages). we finally arrived at sheraton imperial on 4 pm. We straight to Nusantara Ballroom for some briefing by my boss. Went up to the hotel room to change our clothes. Everybody looks so good in all white outfits. Never forget the photo shoot session. It was so fun and we enjoy it so much. After a while, we went down to start our job.

The evening started with foyer game, it is high striker and ballon grab. my self couldn't stop catching pictures of the guest from caltex. The bad thing is i have to use walkie talkie. Totally spoiling my outfit la. The ballroom opened at 7.30 pm and the ceremony just went so organized, smooth and everybody havin a very good time.

Enuff said, the function end at 11pm. All staffs plus the boss went up to the room, we got the payment and change our clothes. We went to the Senja, nerby the hotel. Ate much foods and talking all the gath. Myself is so happy and it was a great experience in my life. Luv you guys.

I want to be your shoulder to cry on

Jaz, While I lay here waiting to hear from you, I can't help thinking about what my life has become when you became a part of it. Waiting and wanting you has been the focus of my thoughts these days, knowing that one day, all that I have envisioned of us being together, will finally happen, even if it's just for a moment.You give me reason to wake up in the morning and smile.

Just smile for no particular reason except the fact that you are here. As days go by I feel myself growing closer and closer and my heart is suddenly coming out of its shy spot and wanting to feel what it feels like to be loved again. I don't ever want to lose this feeling. I don't ever want to lose you.When I hear your voice, it's like a feeling I don't want to leave; you give me comfort and joy. The sound of your voice is like my favorite love song, I can listen to it all night until it puts me to sleep.

Yet, still as I continue to lay here and think about everything you are to me, I can't help but wonder, what's on your mind too? How much do you feel, and how real do you think this really is?Still, I just want you to know that wherever this road may take us, and how far it may be to finally get where we want to go, always know you are in my heart and in my heart is where you'll always be. Life hasn't been this grateful to me, until there was you.

Thank you for being you. What I'd like to say next, I'd like to say to you personally.Until then....

Hikayat Budak Pemalas

Really nice story..Dimulakan hikayat 5 orang budak yang baru abis paper programming. *Final exam.Budak2 ini memang nakal,suka merayau,suka lepak, malas buat assignment dan juga malas study. Kesan daripada itu,mereka selalu kena marah dengan BF2 masing-masing. Parent tak marah.. sebab tak tahu. huhu..

Pada esok harinya mereka sepatutnya mensubmit project digital video berjudul "FRIM".. something like that lah. Shoot dah siap, dah convert..cuma belum dimasukkan dalam ulead untuk diedit.. Tapi memandangkan lecturer mereka yang sungguh cute dan murah hati telah memberi kebenaran untuk submit pada hari jumaat. mereka pun berasa sangat lega dan hilang pertimbangan..

Dengan rasa ala2 takde paper dah lepas tuh.. mereka telah membuat rombongan ke One utama. Sampai2 terus amik ticket wayang gol and gincu. mereka pun menonton cerita yang sangat sewonot itu sambil ketawa tak ingat. Dalam hati dah tanam azam baru, yeah main futsal..

selepas itu mereka beramai2 ke foodcourt dan mengorder fav food masing2. lapar memang tak ingat. dari pagi mengadap kertas peksa.. selepas itu, mereka mula mentawaf one utama yang sungguh besar itu.. bermacam2 kedai dan bermacam2 benda alah. selagi tak malam, selagi tak shop til drop..tanak balik kot..Dan hari ini, budak berlima itu sedang takut kalau project tak siap. mula gelabah sana sini. tapi muka buat2 control slumber, moral of the story.. finish your work first..sekian..